Date Rape Trauma Cleared with EFT

George and I had dated a few times (I was 15). He seemed very loving and tender, always expressing his love for me. No one had ever loved me before. It was quite a new phenomenon for me. I didn’t know quite what to make of it, but I liked it.

This night he said he loved me and wanted to marry me over and over again, but as he said these things he was pushing me down against the seat tugging at my clothes. I struggled against him because this didn’t seem right, but as I struggled he forced my head under and behind the steering wheel. My head was almost to the floor and I remember feeling the pedals. Each time I tried to get up my head was stuck and I couldn’t get in an upright sitting position. But I didn’t scream. I couldn’t fight against him. He did his dirty deed. I didn’t tell anyone. I never saw him again. I was alone. There was no one to help me. Love had come into my life briefly, and love hurt.

This date rape issue is an incident I thought I had dealt with successfully with talk therapy before EFT. When it came up again a few months back, I tapped it down to level of intensity of 0 out of 10 with EFT. Yet there it was again, alive and squeezing at my heart, screaming for release. So I immediately started tapping:

Even though I feel dirty and undeserving…
Even though I couldn’t scream…
Even though I couldn’t fight against him…
Even though I couldn’t scream…
Even though I didn’t expect that…
Even though I was so naive to think he really loved me…

Even though I never dreamed that could happen…
Even though I did nothing to stop him…
Even though I feel so guilty…
Even though I couldn’t scream…
Even though I feel so ashamed…

Even though I was such a wimp…
Even though I couldn’t scream…
Even though I was alone and no one to help me…
Even though I was so naive and didn’t know what to do…
Even though I let that young girl tells me how to feel…
Even though I listened to that young girl all this time…
Even though I couldn’t scream…

I was stuck on screaming. I somehow had to scream. I was in the bathroom so I turned on the fan, and the water full blast, grabbed some towels put them hard on my face and started to scream, and scream into the towels until I couldn’t scream anymore. Then I continued tapping:

Even though I couldn’t scream then I can scream now…
Even though I still feel so ashamed…
Even though I was so stupid to think he really loved me…
Even though I still feel so guilty…
Even though I feel so guilty but I know it wasn’t my fault…

Even though I let him take advantage of me…
Even though I let that event controls much of my adult life…
Even though I’m still alone, it’s not in the way that I was alone before…
Even though I have trouble forgiving myself for being such a wimp…

Even though I let that young girl protect me in the only way she knew how, she doesn’t’ need to protect me anymore … She can stop now … She can rest now … It’s time for her to come in … It’s time for “us” to unite, to be one … I can protect her now …

I choose to protect her now … I choose to love her, and give her what she desires … That little girl that was me and I are together now … I choose to love her and protect her, and take care of her, like she tried her best to do with me … She just didn’t know what to do. I know what to do now.

I choose to let go of the guilt and the shame … No more guilt, no more shame … Letting it go … It wasn’t my fault … I did not cause it … I choose to forgive myself … I forgive myself … I am willing to look at forgiving George, the bastard; he really took advantage of me.

I was so naive … I knew nothing … I wonder how many others he date-raped like he did me … He knew what he was doing … Maybe that was the only way he could feel good about himself … George is a sick individual … He needs help … He’s the wimp … I need to forgive him, so I can let this go once and for all.
George, you bastard, I forgive you … George, I don’t want you in my life on any level anymore, so I completely forgive you, and let you go …

I forgive myself for hanging on to this for so long … Letting it go … Letting it all go … I am safe, and I am happy … I completely love and accept myself.

At long last, I was free of the date-rape incident. I was able to scream and I feel cleansed. I have also been able to clear several other painful core issues with EFT. I am so grateful to my friend Paul, who sent me the info on EFT. It has taken over my life. I immersed myself in it. I researched it, read about it, ordered and viewed all the DVDs. Studied it at every hour of the day and night. I began to treat myself for physical and emotional ailments, and to bring relief to my friends, their friends, family members, and whoever showed any interest in wanting to try it out. It works! It has become my path, my passion and my life.

Jeanne "J.R." Ranger

From the EFTfree Archives, which are now a part of EFT International .
Originally published on March 26, 2011.